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Tuesday, September 29, 2020

How My Spiritual Eyes Opened Testimony Of Prophet Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj

Years ago before I started walking in the realm of the spirit and before my spiritual eyes were opened greatly desired to have my spiritual eyes opened. I got born again from being a Hindu in a meeting that was organized by a denomination that doesn’t believe in the baptism of the holy spirit. They don’t believe in all that. However, they are very good at proclaiming the second coming of the Lord Jesus Christ. Being a Hindu, I received this flyer in my letterbox announcing about a thirty-day crusade. I just felt compelled to go. Being a Hindu, we do not know anything about all the Fighting’s that go on in a church. Whether my denomination is right or your denomination right. We don’t know anything. We only know one thing. There is a God called Jesus Christ and the Christians go to a church. That’s all we know being, an outsider.


I went to this meeting. It was in an auditorium like this. I was sitting right up on the balcony getting the message and when the preacher an American man gave an altar call deep down in my spirit I heard a voice. This is the true God go and follow him. A real voice, real audible voice coming from deep inside me. This is the true God go and follow him. I thought in my mind what about all the gods that we have been worshipping all this while. The Hindus worship 330 million gods. Don’t ask me how they counted. Some of them got it all figured. Every Hindu, a good pious Hindu, will worship at least a dozen gods in their houses. We have a small altar in our house, and we keep pictures of some of the popular gods. There’ll be one patron god. He’s like the guardian of the family. Then with all the other gods. We worship a dozen gods and here I’m in this meeting. I’m hearing this voice this is the true God go and follow him so there was a battle inside of me.


What about all the other gods? What about them? But the voice kept on speaking each time I stopped it. The only thing was it was getting louder and louder. This is the true God go and follow him. I didn’t know what to do, what to makeover. Do you know, so I just set on the seat and after a while, I felt that the chair on which I was sitting began to shake. It shook. Literally shaking. Keep on speaking this is the true God and the impression is coming into my mind get up and go. Guess what I did, I just held onto the handle. I wouldn’t go. I didn’t know what to make out of it. Why is this voice telling me this is a true God? I didn’t know but I was just very stubborn so I saw a lot of people getting up from the chairs and going to the front.


Then suddenly a third thing happened. I felt a hand below my back it gently lifted me up on my feet. Now I was up at the balcony, so I thought in my heart. First, it was a voice, second came the shaking, then came the hand then lifted me up. If I were to resist any longer, this hand is going to take me up and throw me down. I thought, let me just submit myself to it. I felt his hand just clutching me no, and it gently let me down three flights of steps. I came, and I stood on the left part where the preacher was standing.


I clearly remember this whole thing as if it happened yesterday. As soon as I came, it seemed that the preacher was waiting for me all the while. I don’t think he noticed me. A Nice white man. I don’t think he noticed me because there were about fifty other people. I was standing in one corner not surrounded by anybody. So as soon as I came, he said let us pray so he started leading the people in the sinner’s prayer. I didn’t understand anything. I was just a Hindu sixteen years old. So standing there whether to repeat the sinner’s prayer or not, I don’t Know. To repeat the sinner’s prayer, I did not know anything. I stood there, I said okay I’ve come this far. Let me go one step further I looked up. Jesus, if you are the true God please set me free from this cycle of rebirth.


Hindus believe in the cycle of rebirth. I said Lord if you are the true God please set me free from the cycle of rebirth. As soon as I said that I felt a pot of oil being poured on my head. I literally felt it. I turn around to see if anybody was standing beside me. There was no one within a 3-foot radius. No one. But I felt a part of my head. It cools down my head, and it was oozing down. I felt a cleansing taking place inside my heart. He flowed down my hands, flowed down my body all over my face, and he reached my legs and when he washed the toes and then he left. I felt all my sins are forgiven me and a great peace that I cannot explain came and filled my heart.


At that moment I knew this Jesus Christ is the true Living God. It was a forced supernatural encounter. I came to the Lord, so after I got saved this church that held the meeting gave me some pamphlets and some books as a follow-up to read. So I came back home, I kept my faith hidden. My father was a priest, so he doesn’t want me to go and tell him I just became a Christian. So I kept it hidden as long as I could until I was caught red-handed with the Bible and then all hell broke loose.

 

So he severely reprimanded me from reading the Bible or anything to do with Christians. So I obeyed him. I forgot everything about the meeting the church everything. But I was back to my normal life as a Hindu then came our annual school vacation. So during the vacation, I had nothing else to do. I had no friends, my father never allowed us to mix with any friends. Very strict man. Home school home that’s all. No playtime. So sitting at home one month of vacation not knowing what to do. I was sitting all alone in my bedroom and I thought okay let me read the book that they gave me at the meeting six months ago. It’s called steps to Christ.


I didn’t know what that church was. I didn’t know what denomination it was. All I knew was I got saved. It didn’t matter to me which Church they were. As I was reading the book the same voice that spoke to me this is the true God once again it spoke. It said you made a mistake go back to the church and get baptized. Very distinct, very clear just like how I heard six months ago. So I remembered all those events. I immediately went to the church. Good thing they had services on a Saturday. So I could lie to my parents that I have extra classes in school. I would put my school uniform on and go to school. I would be the only person in that Church that came with the school uniform. I’d met the pastor, and I said I wanted to get baptized.


To make a long story short after he said you know first, you need to learn about the Bible then only we can baptize you. I asked him how long will they take. Three months. I said all right, so every Sunday afternoon during that period when my father sleeps that was the time I’ll sneak out of the house go to the church and have my Bible study and run back quickly home before he gets up. All during the three months of Bible study, I did not learn anything about the Bible except the teachings of the church denomination. It didn’t matter to me. My goal was to get baptized. It didn’t matter to me what they thought about sabbath-keeping? What they thought about not eating clean food unclean food. It didn’t matter to me.


My goal was to go through all the studies so that I can be ready to get the price in the water because that’s what the Lord told me you know go and get baptized. So I got baptized on the 3rd of March 1979. After that, I was now in high school. One day I was walking down the road to school when I felt something come from heaven and drop into my spirit. When he dropped in the voice, spoke God is calling you to the ministry. This was how I was led step by step, so eventually, I became a member of the Church. That church doesn’t believe in the Holy Spirit experience. By the way, it’s called the Seventh-Day Adventist Church, which I’m sure you have guessed by now.


I was so naive so like a baby Christian who knows nothing about church denominations. Whether it’s a Methodist Church or an Anglican Church of the Episcopal a Presbyterian Church or United Methodist or Divided. I’m sorry they have all divided anyway. They all disunited anyway.


Whatever it is, my one goal was I was led by the spirit. After I got my call, to make a long story short, after a year and a half I came out of the church. Realizing that all the wrong teachings are the wrong teaching. When I came out of the church, I was introduced to the Pentecostal church. I didn’t like them much. So much of shouting. Look, this is what happens in 1979. In their 70's they all straitjacket Christians. They only sing hymns, no clapping of hands no moving of your body, nothing straitjacket Christians.


Then here I came into a Pentecostal church just jumping up and down they’re clapping their hands I felt like a fish out of water. I didn’t like going to the Pentecostal church. All this hooliganism. Then I came to know about the Holy Spirit. The baptism of the Holy Spirit but I had so much of the Seventh Day teaching inside my mind. That I could not accept what these Pentecostals are telling me about. Speaking in tongues in the Holy Spirit. I told the Lord, Lord I don’t want to listen to this guy or that guy I want you to teach me, Lord. I took the Bible, and I read the Gospels over and over again until I was convinced of the truth that this baptism of the Holy Spirit is real.


So once I knew it was real, I began to pray honestly from the middle of 1980 up to September 1981. I prayed honestly. Lord fill me with the Holy Spirit. Lord filled me with the Holy Spirit. Then in 1981 September a mighty man of God came to our town and he conducted a crusade and in the crusade, I was gloriously filled with the Holy Spirit for three days in a row. I felt like a hundred and ten thousand-watt electricity would flow through my whole body for 15 whole minutes. I will feel it flowing and flowing and flowing mightily three days in a row every day. I was so happy, now I’ve got baptized in the Holy Spirit after that I began to earnestly desire the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Because I saw that in that preacher's life how all the nine gifts of the Holy Spirit manifested in his life. How he used to call our people’s names and tell them their problems.


I said, Lord I want this. I earnestly prayed for the gifts of the Holy Spirit. After I had started exercising the gifts of the Holy Spirit in my life, I was not satisfied with that. There must be something more then I came to know about another man of God by the way both these men of God have all gone to be with the Lord. But his other men of God had a deep intimate walk with God in the heavenly realms. He used to be caught up into the heavens. He used to see angels. He was translated, and he has this communion of saints in the glory that began to captivate me. I said I need that. That is the next step. To pray earnestly, Lord I want to walk with you like that man of God. I want the same anointing Lord, open my spiritual eyes.


In this pursuit, during this period of time, I do not know how I got this book but a book called the Believers Authority written by the late Kenneth Hagin book into my hand. I read through the book. When I read through the book, I came to the part where he one day was dissatisfied with his own spiritual life and he wanted something deeper. Have you read the book? He locked himself in his church, and he told his wife I’m going to pray and seek the Lord. Don’t wait for me to come for dinner, I’m not going to come out until I have an encounter with God. He opened his Bible to Ephesians chapter 1 verses 17 to 21 in chapter 3 verses 17 to 22, where the Apostle Paul prays a prayer for the efficiency of believers. He prayed the prayer. These prayers are spirit-filled prayers and they are not only meant for the efficient believers they also meant for me.


So I claimed those prayers. He prayed and he prayed and he prayed until the Lord told him from this day onwards the spiritual eyes are opened. So when I read that something stirred inside me. So I thought, if it can work for a white man it can certainly work for an Indian because our God is not colorblind. He’s not colorblind so I wrote down that prayer and I personalized that prayer. Lord fill me with the spirit of wisdom and revelation that the eyes of my understanding would be enlightened that I may know what is the hope of my calling and what the riches of the glory of my inheritance in the Saints and what is the exceeding greatness of your mighty power that worketh in me.


I wrote it down on a piece of paper and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed every waking moment. Every little moment of time that I get I will kneel down in one corner and earnestly pray this prayer. One day as I was praying I saw like a flash of light, it says after hundred and eighty days you will get this gift. I don’t know why there are a hundred and eighty days. But I made a note of it in my diary. But I still kept on praying every day I prayed that prayer. When I’m traveling on the bus, I pray. When I’m walking, when I work, I pray every little moment I can. Go to one small corner, kneel down, and pray this prayer. In the third week of September 1983, I think you see that the 23rd or the 24th I was in a spiritual meeting and when the prayer was going on suddenly my spiritual eyes were opened.


I saw the Lord Jesus Christ hanging on a cross for 20 minutes. I saw that vision from all different angles you know from the right side from the left side from the front from the back from the top from all corners and tears flowed from my eyes like rivers. I wept and I wept. I do not know why I was weeping, and I could not control the tears it just flowed like rivers that night.


When I went back to my room I was recording this incident in my diary. I have a habit of writing down all visions that I see whatever the Lord speaks to me in my diary. When I wrote that incident in my diary, I thought to let me see what day is the day. When I counted back, it was exactly the hundred and eightieth day that was the exact 180th day. My spiritual eyes were opened from that day onwards. Every time I’m praying I’ll see a vision. A spiritual vision and I were not satisfied with that. No, this is not enough I must go to the next step what is the next step. Seeing the Lord Jesus Christ, that is my next step.


I began to pray earnestly Lord I want to see you. I mean I heard what that man of God talked about. When he shares all his wonderful experiences, how he was caught up to the third heaven, how the Lord Jesus Christ would come into his prayer study, or when he is reading the Bible how the Lord Jesus walked into his bedroom and said do you understand what you’re reading. It was so nice to hear all that. But I did not stop there I said no I need that Lord. I need that. If you can do that for him, you can do it for anybody because you love everybody. So I prayed honestly. I prayed honestly.


One day after about two months I decided to spend a whole day in prayer. This man of God receives, I served in his ministry for about two and a half months, so he received hundreds of letters every day people writing to him for prayer so it was my duty when he goes out of town to pray for all those requests on his behalf and then to reply send replies to all the people.


On one that one particular day in November 1983 I decided to spend a whole day in prayer from 10:00 in the morning up to 5:00 in the evening. So I told my associate look I’m going to pray today please don’t disturb me. You take care of my part of the work. Tomorrow I’ll make up for you. So here it’s a very nice young guy. So from 10 a.m. I went into the prayer room then knelt I began to worship the Lord and began to meditate the word and just wait on God and when the evening came about.


I said alright let me now pray for all these letters. So I knelt on besides my bed and just as I was about to say Lord Spirit of God I’m going to pray for all these letters. Help me to pray. Yes, I was about to say that sentence I heard the sound that somebody was turning the doorknob. I wondered when I told that no one should disturb me how come somebody’s coming. So the door opened and just as I was about to say who goes there the Lord Jesus Christ entered in as real as you see me standing before you.


I saw him standing there wearing a beautiful blue robe a blue robe. He stood there, and he closed the door behind him and he walked so gently so gloriously. No one can imitate how the Lord walks there’s such a gentleman style of walking. He walked, he came straight to me. So this is an experience of a lifetime. You are hitting the jackpot now. Previously I thought to myself if I ever see the Lord these are all the questions I’m going to ask him. Have you ever thought like that but the moment I saw the Lord the mind goes blank. The mind goes blank and it’s just hard all at the beauty of the Lord Jesus. The beauty, extreme beauty you know.


When Solomon wrote he is fairer than ten thousand, I think that’s not correct you know it’s more than ten thousand so glorious he came and stood beside me and what he said next shocked me.


He said I have come to pray with you. What do you mean Lord I’ve never heard anything like this before and then what he did next shocked me further. He kneeled down. This is getting worse, in bed I didn’t know how to react. Here first I was shocked by his beauty second I was shocked by the statement that he made third I was shocked by his action of kneeling beside the dust. King David rightfully said, Who am I but a worm but a dog. Who am I for the King of glory to come and kneel down beside me? I couldn’t digest all this you know then he said put your hand on those letters and let us pray. I told the Lord.


I somehow plucked some courage. Lord, I do not know what all these people have written. Shall I read them one by one to you so that we can then pray? See how naive and stupid we are. He already knows what’s in the letter, but he said. My naivety and my innocence now it’s a lot. I don’t know he just smiled at me now. One beautiful smile. He said just lay your hands. We will pray. So I let my hands, and the lord laid his hands on my hands and he said let us now pray and he lifted his face. Of course, I didn’t pray. I didn’t want to miss this opportunity, so I opened my eyes I looked at him. We were this close and I looked at him he lifted his face and he began to groan and groan and tears float like rivers.


I saw Romans 8:26 personified before my eyes. The Holy Spirit groaning in prayer. I saw the Lord his spirit his inside and he just groans. His whole chest and his whole body were moving and groaning and tears flowed down his eyes and when he was finished. He told me now this is how you shall reply to them and we went through all the 300 letters one by one. Not a collective prayer like how we popularly do today. That day I learned every person meant to the Lord. Every request meant to the Lord. It’s not a collective prayer. Lord, we pray for all these letters. Lord answer them every single letter. Every single tear meant to the Lord. When we would through with all those letters then he looked at me. He stood up. He laid his hands on my head, and he blessed me. From that day onwards every time, I close my eyes to pray I see the Lord Jesus Christ standing by my right side so I was very happy but I said Lord this is not enough.


There’s something more. What’s more now? I want to see your glory, Lord. I want to see the heaven that’s what I started praying next. Honestly prayed Lord I want to see your glory I prayed earnestly.


He said I have come to pray with you. What do you mean Lord I’ve never heard anything like this before and then what he did next shocked me further. He kneeled down. This is getting worse, in bed I didn’t know how to react. Here first I was shocked by his beauty second I was shocked by the statement that he made third I was shocked by his action of kneeling beside the dust. King David rightfully said, Who am I but a worm but a dog. Who am I for the King of glory to come and kneel down beside me? I couldn’t digest all this you know then he said put your hand on those letters and let us pray. I told the Lord.


I somehow plucked some courage. Lord, I do not know what all these people have written. Shall I read them one by one to you so that we can then pray? See how naive and stupid we are. He already knows what’s in the letter, but he said. My naivety and my innocence now it’s a lot. I don’t know he just smiled at me now. One beautiful smile. He said just lay your hands. We will pray. So I let my hands, and the lord laid his hands on my hands and he said let us now pray and he lifted his face. Of course, I didn’t pray. I didn’t want to miss this opportunity, so I opened my eyes I looked at him. We were this close and I looked at him he lifted his face and he began to groan and groan and tears float like rivers.


I saw Romans 8:26 personified before my eyes. The Holy Spirit groaning in prayer. I saw the Lord his spirit his inside and he just groans. His whole chest and his whole body were moving and groaning and tears flowed down his eyes and when he was finished. He told me now this is how you shall reply to them and we went through all the 300 letters one by one. Not a collective prayer like how we popularly do today. That day I learned every person meant to the Lord. Every request meant to the Lord. It’s not a collective prayer. Lord, we pray for all these letters. Lord answer them every single letter. Every single tear meant to the Lord. When we would through with all those letters then he looked at me. He stood up. He laid his hands on my head, and he blessed me. From that day onwards every time, I close my eyes to pray I see the Lord Jesus Christ standing by my right side so I was very happy but I said Lord this is not enough.

 

 

There’s something more. What’s more now? I want to see your glory, Lord. I want to see the heaven that’s what I started praying next. Honestly prayed Lord I want to see your glory I prayed earnestly.


The bible tells us in the book of Hebrews chapter 12 that in the last days the communion of the Saints will be restored with the judge. Are you familiar with that? You have this man of God used to share wonderful experiences of how he had this communion of saints. You’re not talking with big people. You’re not dead. Because the Bible says the Lord Jesus Christ Himself said. God is not the god of the dead. He’s the god of the living. He’s the God of Abraham, God of Isaac God of Jacob.


He’s the god of the living. If they are living then, we are not practicing necromancy. It’s not that. Come and see they are living Saints in glory and we have a proof in the scriptures in Matthew chapter 17 where Elijah and Moses came and talked with the Lord Jesus.


The scriptures are there. Isn’t it? And also in Matthew 27 verses 51 and 52, you read it that after the resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ the graves opened, and the Saints rose and they appeared unto the people in Jerusalem. They appeared. Appeared and spoke with the people so we have scriptures for all that. So before I prayed to see the glory of heaven, before that I prayed Lord now I would like, I didn’t pray to see all these saints. I didn’t pray. I just decided to walk with God. The Lord gave me a commandment. He said to do this commandment. Spend this number of hours each day in prayer. I’m not going to say how many. Because that is specific only for me. It will not apply to everybody. I learned that didn't apply to everybody because when I shared this with a few other people when they did that, that same number of hours nothing worked. So then I realized it was not for those. That was tailor-made for me.


The principle is waiting on God. That’s the principle walking with God. Fellowshipping with God pursuing honestly. This is what you must now learn. Pursue earnestly and sharing all this with you not to brag about my spirituality now but to provoke you unto jealousy. That’s what I’m doing. This is not what I prepared to share with you tonight. I’m just provoking you. I say all this with great humility. I’m just provoking, My one intention is to provoke you into holy jealousy so that when you leave this place and when you go home you will kneel and you will pray Lord if you can do that to that Indian you can do it for me. That’s my desire. You will do that. If God can do that to an Indian, he can certainly do it to you because God is not colorblind.


So I began to spend this number of hours every day in prayer after seven days one day I was just waiting on God meditating the word certainly I felt someone just entered into my room. I turn around, and I saw a very aged looking Saint full of glory with long white beard long white hair standing in my room and he walked towards me and he asked me what are you reading?


I said sir you know in India we are taught to address elders as the father. You call them fathers. I said father this is what I’m reading. So I then looked at him. Sir, who are you? He said I am the one who wrote the book of Revelation. I did not say the word John you know, and he sat beside me. He said turn your Bible to the book of Revelation let’s go to chapter 1.


You know how I wrote that. He explained to me how he wrote that. For a long time, I had a question in my heart. I told Sir you were on the island of Patmos how did you write those seven messages and got it delivered to the seven churches all over Asia Minor. He said when God gave me that revelation the angels of those cities, they all came and stood before me. I wrote on the scrolls, and I will give it to them and they took it to the various Churches to the Angel of the church. In obedience they took it. This was how he explained to me. After that brief visit of about half an hour, he left. From that day onwards every other day, he would enter into my room when I’m waiting on the Lord. Either to pray together or to explain to me some scriptures. Some things that I don’t understand about the Bible they say do you know what it means? I’m reading the book of Isaiah, the prophet Isaiah, comes. He said let me explain to you what this means. Every day this went on.


I was very elated. But I was not satisfied. Now there must be something more. What’s next? See the glories of heaven. That became my next goal. So I began to pray earnestly Lord I want to see your glory. Lord, I want to see your glory every day I earnestly passionately prayed. Lord, I want to see your glory. On my birthday a saint visited me in the night when I was praying. Today is your birthday I have come to bless you. Very soon that which you have been praying for it will be granted to you. As soon as he said that I knew this was the one. I said thanked the saint, and he left. I kept on praying earnestly Lord now you have given me a sure promise. It’s no more just by faith now I have a sure promise.


I honestly began to pray continually. Lord, I need this Lord I need that. One day on March the 24th 1984 at two o’clock in the morning as I was waiting on God suddenly I saw myself in a strange place. I opened my eyes I looked around so beautiful Park. Beautiful park. I was in my room in India. It’s a small room six by six, and it’s all. Cemented ground how come? This is a park beautiful park. I’ve never seen such greenery anywhere else in the world. Just as I was wondering where I was two angels, about eight feet tall came and stood beside me and said welcome. I ask them where’s this place? This is paradise and they took me around. To a place where children are. Little children three years old five years old. Saw them staying in that part of paradise. That was another great way that was opened likewise. Till today I don’t want to stop hungry or desiring. It is not good to just here. But preachers like me come and tell you. Oh, I’ve had this experience or have at this walk. This is possible. That is possible. Don’t stop there. It is your father’s desire that you press on. It is your father’s desire I say this with all-knowingness and surety.


It is not your father’s desire. He would not have shown me that yesterday. He would not have shown me. It is your father’s desire. A Syrophoenician woman came to the Lord Jesus Christ for her daughter. Her daughter was demon-possessed, and she asked a lot to heal her. The Lord just couldn’t. Careless about her. First, the disciples ignored her. Then it was the Lord Jesus Christ who ignored her. He said you are a Syrophoenician your time has not come. I am sent to the house of the Jews. It’s not good to cast the children’s bread to the dogs. In the Eastern culture to call someone, a dog is a very very high insult and the Syrophoenician woman. Even today in Eastern culture you don’t call a person a dog.


That is the meanest and the most insult that you can give to a person. But look at this woman. Even though the Lord Jesus Christ insulted her and call her dog instead of feeling offended and just walk away saying you called me a dog. Instead of reacting like that she humbled herself, she says yes Lord I am a dog. Lord but I’m not going to give up. She remembered to know what dogs do. Dogs keep on going around the Masters's feet. Don’t they? You try to shoo away your dog. It keeps on coming back right. It keeps on coming back again and again and again. That’s what dogs do. They don’t give up. That’s what that lady that woman did.


She did not give up. She said yes Lord even the Dogs will come and sit at the Master's feet and hope for the crumbs to fall down. Now when she pursued the Lord. Then that moved the heart of the Lord Jesus and he said according to your faith let it be done. How faith moves beyond time technically the Lord cannot bless her because he’s under the Old Covenant. So how did he heal her then? Have faith. Faith has no time. It exists in all time because she moved in that faith dimension. It transcends. Time to the cross. When the blood felt it. Made the way open for the gospel to go to the Gentiles in that time dimension. The Lord turn around and spoke to her according to your faith let it be healed and she was healed. Pursuing after the object of your passion. This is what God expects you to have now.


By the end of this conference, you’re going to have a breakthrough, and I’m sure you desire that. Don’t you? You have not just come here for head knowledge. Have you? If you are here for that purpose, I have bad news for you. You have wasted your time. You have wasted your time. At the end of this conference on Saturday, you must have a powerful encounter with God. Even before that and the only qualification is for you to earnestly contend for your destiny. Earnestly contend.


This is my destiny, Lord. I want that. Pray earnestly pursue. If you do that the coat that rested upon Joseph. The coat of many colors it’s not just many colors you know it’s many promises. The Seven fold Spirit of the Lord that rested on the coat will also come upon you.